Facing the Battles

                                           One day at the mall I decided to look around a gadget store. I found grow a boyfriend. I thought it was so funny. Though that day I decided not to buy it. After taking a picture holding it, I posted it online. I got asked if I brought it. I regretted not buying it. I finally a week later I found it online and order it for a penny. It is a cheap date.          For many years I always had bad luck with guys. I end up just friends with guys, or finding guys that are not relationship material. I met a bunch that are just looking for hook ups, cheaters, liars, stalkers, drunks, or drug addicts. I been through it all.  One time I was in a relationship went to the movies valentines day and had to pay for myself. I thought really? I once had a bad blind date experience set up by someone related to me. We met at...

This happened a few years ago. A family member whom I'm not even close with and barely ever see. So she tells me she has the perfect guy for me to meet. The guy calls me. We spoke on the phone. He was really quite so I figured ok he is shy. He asks me if I can meet him 2 days later. I wasn't even thrilled. I tell him ok and to meet me by a local restaurant by my house. The day arrived I go to meet him. He calls me are you here. I said almost. He tells me he outside the restaurant wearing black pants and what not. So I figured I cross the street look for him walk past first in case I don't like him. That wasn't the case. I cross the street he's not even there. He was around the block. So I stand and wait. I see a guy walk and stop in front. Looking like he's looking for someone. We ended up looking like are you ...? He goes hi. I take out my phone when he wasn't paying attention texting my bff omg this is a nitemare already. I didn't know how ...

In life sometimes you are not sure what you should do. Sometimes there's something or someone you always wanted. Though you might be scared to tell them the truth of how you really feel. Sometimes you think if you take a chance it might ruin everything. Sometimes you might think you'll fail . So what are you suppose to do? I learned always go for what you want because if you don't you will always regret it. Always follow your heart. If you take a chance everything might turn out perfect, or everything might get ruined . At least then you'll know you tried. The only tears worth crying about is if everything gets ruined, not if u didn't try. The only smiles worth smiling about is if everything turns out perfect. Everything happens for a reason . What's meant to be will be .