Facing the Battles

                                           One day at the mall I decided to look around a gadget store. I found grow a boyfriend. I thought it was so funny. Though that day I decided not to buy it. After taking a picture holding it, I posted it online. I got asked if I brought it. I regretted not buying it. I finally a week later I found it online and order it for a penny. It is a cheap date.          For many years I always had bad luck with guys. I end up just friends with guys, or finding guys that are not relationship material. I met a bunch that are just looking for hook ups, cheaters, liars, stalkers, drunks, or drug addicts. I been through it all.  One time I was in a relationship went to the movies valentines day and had to pay for myself. I thought really? I once had a bad blind date experience set up by someone related to me. We met at a restaurant. We both order food, obviously. Though he ate all of his food , then asked to have some of mine. As a result he pretty much a

                         I'm starting to feel like the game Operation. I don't know why every year I end up with some kind of surgery. I just went into surgery for the same surgery for my 3rd time. The only difference this time it was done open. I also had a two part surgery. When I went to take another scan, I found out I had another hernia out and my Nissen Fundoplation wrap slipped again into my chest. I went to two surgeons, my gastric surgeon and got referred to a thoracic surgeon also. I really didn't under to much how the surgery was going to be. I knew the thoracic surgeon was going to do my surgery open through the chest. Which I was freaking out about the after scar.I knew my gastric surgeon was going to do his part laparascopic taking out scar tissue.                           A week before I had to go for pretesting. At pretesting they mainly asked a bunch of questions and drew blood. They did go over my medicine list. They also only had one of my surgeons